call me black magic woman.

I consider what happened to me today as a retribution after what i did on Friday.
Ok fine Karma, you got me this time..

I'm feeling miserable all day long.
Things just didn't turn out the way i had thought it would.

Went out to Kovan, and mum shopped like no one's business.
The best part was, i was (as usual) her Personal Assistant.

"this nice? or that one?? The black one goes with the brown??"

My job there is to say yes or no & be a walking clothes hanger.
She choose the clothes & i QUEUE up to make payment.
At first i enjoy it, but after some time, it feels terribly horrible because it's like don't i get to choose a piece of nice shirt for myself??

Man, being the only daughter is sure tough.

Zulky's having a verrrrrrrrrrry buuuuussssyyy & tight schedule next week, so i'm pretty much left alone for the whole week. Hopefully that Kenneth guy call me soon.




You...

While I'm just a lonely,miserable,fuming cow.

cos i bruise easily;

<3

I think this song is amazing.
I actually took the pains to find the translated meaning of this song because
1st, my tongue get twisted when i try to sing it (i can only chorus "Hao Maaa...")
2nd, i keep on listening to it singing when i read YIQI's blog so i hafta know what these girls are singing about la. They sound terribly sad~







Are (you) doing fine lately?


tiao yi zhang ye dan ka xie shang man man zhu fu de hua
Chose a Christmas card and wrote happy greetings on it


di zi xie de shi xin di ni neng bu neng shou dao ta
The address written on it is 'the bottom of the heart', so can you receive it?


tian you dian leng, feng you dian da, cheng shi ning jing er xuan hua
The skies are a little cold and the wind is a little big; the city is quiet yet noisy


zhe yi ge dong tian wo de yi ge ren zou hui jia
This winter day I have to walk home alone


wen zi ji xi guan le ma, mei you ni mei dao ye li hui sheng bian de hao da
Asking myself whether I have gotten used to it; without you the echoes at night have become louder


you mei you shen me hao fang fa, rang ji mo bian ting hua
Is there any good way to tame loneliness?


ni zui jin hai hao ma, shi bu shi ye zai si nian li zheng zha
Are you doing fine lately? Are you still struggling in your emotions


ni shuo hui ji de wo hui ji de ma
Do you still remember you said that you would remember me?


ni zui jin hai hao ma, mang lu ma lei ma xin hai hui tong ma
Are you doing fine lately? Busy? Tired? Heartache?


ru guo zhen bu de yi wang le wo, kuai xiang kuai le chu fa
If you really have no choice but to forget me, please head towards happiness


you zai duo de qian gua dou yi mei you quan li biao da (mei you quan li biao da)
No matter how much worries I have I am unable to express them (unable to express them)


jiu qing ren gei de wen hou bi mo sheng ren hai gang ga (dou hai gang ga)
The greetings old lovers exchange is more awkward than the greetings strangers exchange (it's more awkward)


zuo tian yuan le, ming tian hai chang, hui yi mo hu dan ju da
Yesterday is far away already, but tomorrow is still long, the memories are unclear but enormous


zhe yang de shen ye yan lei yao zen yang bu liu xia
How do I stop the tears from flowing in the middle of the night


wen zi ji xi guan le ma, mei you ni mei dao ye li hui sheng bian de hao da
Asking myself whether I have gotten used to it; without you the echoes at night have become louder


you mei you shen me hao fang fa, rang ji mo bian ting hua
Is there any good way to tame loneliness?





& zulky, don't get me wrong. I'm not heart broken or what (:

wo ai ni,ni ai wo
my chinese rocks.

he called me fugly again!

PART 1
Nobody in this world can beat my anxiety level right now. I keep on telling myself "i'm expecting a call..[...]..I'm anticipating a call" HIRE ME you humans.


I was in the toilet, brushing my teeth & getting ready for a bath, when my handphone rang. Can you imagine the surge of happiness in me?? And not to mention i almost dashed out of the toilet stark naked, just to answer that long-awaited call.
Thank god, the civilised me managed to gain control, grabbed a towel and went out and nearly pounced on my screaming handphone.

Only when I said "hello" that i realised, SHIT! There's toothpaste & toothpaste foam in my mouth. Ah fug fug. I SWALLOWED the TOOTHPASTE and cringed. Ah fug.Disgusting.

It was so comforting to hear a familiar voice at the other end of the line. It's the guy who interviewed me previously.

Wad up Kenneth?????!!! GahGah!Ofcourse i didn't say that.


He told me that he found a suitable job for me.




Yes Yes Yes YESSSSSS!

So it's half-settled then. I have a JOB. I'm no longer jobless! Champagne anyone? Doobeeedooo~ *claphandslikeamonkey*





PART 2
Been looking for Digi Cam for a long time & i found this on Sony's website.
And seriously, it's just purely utterly awesomely g-o-r-g-e-o-u-s !




please please! Let the price be <$400!!

pinkismine.redisalsomine.

adieu.

the fugly psycho speaks...

Act 1 Scene 1

Me : (playing Guitar Hero III on PS2 , pressing the buttons furiously) Press Press Pressss!

Him : Ha! Pyscho! Pyscho! PYSCHO!!

Me : -_-"


Act 1 Scene 2

Him : I met my ex class mate....[...]..she so Ah Lian...[...]...so pretty.

Me : (fuming like nobody's business while trying to suck my last pearl out from chocolate ice blended.)


Act 1 Scene 3

Him : you're fugly. (laughs off)

Me : What?? How can you call me fugly. So hurt! Hurh!!

Him : Eh, you called me fugly before!

Me : hehe. Is it? NOOOooLah... I'm not that meannn... heh.


Act 1 Scene 4

Me : (on the verge of erupting) How could you say that to your girlfriend??!!

Him : Ala, yaaaaannnggg...

Me : The rule of thumb is NEVER praise other girls in front of your girlfriend!!!

Him : (stick out his thumb,giving thumbs up, and grinned cheekily at me)

Me : ...






The wrong things he would say to me, and yet, after a while, i find it all surprisingly amusing!
Just hope he learnt his lesson!
Heh, Guitar Hero , one more round??

Black magic woman, HIT IT!

Guitar Hero 3: "Black Magic Woman - Santana"









ps : 30 days to go! (:

you made me smile, PSYCHO!


hehe.

lovesss.

x'mas well wishes for all :)

I don't know why but my legs are sore.
Now, I have to waddle like a duck as i walk from one end to another.
Tsk.


1 hour to go before it's really X'mas.
Check out the Oh-my-cuteness button that was tediously (& proudly) made by yours truly, ME!



& wishing you humans (including friends from all over Singapore) out there a smashing new year too!


& to my Zulky : Wwwaaaaayyyy to go!! You have to work on Xmas!
& i'll pray that you'll have a less hectic schedule next year darling.



with plentiful of hugs & kisses for everyone,

x0x0
fateha (:

Sunday Morning. i like...

I'm running around the house like a mouse, trying to make sure everything's in place.
Mum's down with a fever, and me, having the honor of being the one and only (and not to mention the ever precious) daughter, have to keep the house spic-and-span.

A pat on my back! I miraculously did the laundry (over 50 clothes ,washed,clean & proudly hanged), clean the kitchen, eat, run an errand & made tea for my mum in two hours flat.
Call me super woman from now on.

When i get married, i want a maid, please.
So i can concentrate on my ehem CAREER.

Thanks for spending the day with me(:
Breakfast & Guitar Heroes III on PS2 & you.
My Sunday was superb ! (i love you i love you i love you!)

the Sunday morning bliss.

Viva forever,with you..

----------------
Now playing: Spice Girls - Viva Forever
via FoxyTunes

It's totally ironic that here i am trying to fix a chat-mate's love relationship,on my side, i'm feeling totally like a screwed-up girlfriend. Such a pathetic feeling. And to combat those feelings, i'm actually listening to sappy love songs. Like it would help.

I'm the ever so evil girlfriend, who is just too "blind" to see what's going on.
I'm left speechless. Tormenting my own thoughts. What should i do?? Should i do this or that?? How ??

Viva forever
i'll be waiting, everlasting
like the sun...


I hate this sucky feeling. It's indescribable. I know what i want, but i just can't have it.
I know what you are thinking.
I'm truly sorry. I guessed i disappointed you this time.

Live forever
for the moment
ever searching
for the one...

I can't wind back time.
If i could, i'll make sure today we'll have the time of our lives.

I pray that we forget about what happened.
Because i know what matters more is just us two
& that i love you so so so much.

let me dream of you tonight.

*viva = live

tired toes.

I'm tired to the bones as i'm typing this post.
I'm truly greatful to God for the amazing Malacca weather during my 3D2N stay there.

I have to agree totally with my younger brother. He said he didn't really enjoy the trip because it was "boring" . So so so true. Wake up,bath,eat,go out,eat ... Eating is like on the top of the list. We barely bought anything for ourselves (or went shopping in other words) !

I want some excitement like, go jungle trekking or go visit waterfalls, historical places, snap pictures as such... But instead we just eat, and shop for durians, mandarin oranges, vadai... you get the idea...

I want go Gunung Ledang cannnnn ???




i like this picture.
I snapped it from the kampong where i was staying.

mission accomplished.
Waiting for a reunion with Zulky.

Pre-Harry Rare-yer Hutji

Happy Harry Rare-yer Hutji to all.

As you are fore-warned, Your royal highness (that's me) won't be in Singapore to celebrate. So here i am sending my wishes to which-everr soul who is reading this. Slamat..slamat

Big brother is not going with the royal throne to Malacca due to unforeseen circumstances, to put it nicely.

The royal carriage will be leaving at 05o0hours. (1 and a half hour to go!)

Any final messages from the royal highness?

Her royal highness is simply missing her knight in shining armor, who failed to text message her a good night message. (Nevermind, close two eyes.)



Last words : Sanity level plunging down drastically due to insufficient sleep. Bringing Turtoy along. I miss you so terribly.

Sealed with a golden kiss

hady frenzy continues...

Hady Mirza (born January 28, 1980) was the winner of the second season of Singapore Idol. He was crowned the winner on 25 September 2006 at the Singapore Indoor Stadium after garnering 70% of about one million votes cast by television viewers.

His occupation was a pub performer but he wished to be a professional soccer player growing up. The song that would describe him best is "Bohemian Rhapsody" by Queen because of the flow of feelings and brilliant arrangement.

Gee. I'm frenzied over Hady & him winning the Asian Idol.
Gahgah. He's an aquarius (just like me!) and his birthday is 2 whole days after mine. No wonder i can feel some kind of connection with him aye. And not to mention he likes Bohemian Rhapsody too. Omg. So much similarity! Ubber coolness.

Sidetrack :
I'm leaving for Malacca tomorrow and i'm overwhelmed with excitement right now. Gahgah!
But but but the thought of 4 people squeezing at the back of Daddy's car makes my smile downturn. Golly. 4 people sardined cum sandwiched for a 5hours journey? ye-ouch. Sounds terribly painful,doesn't it? Meanwhile, let's pray that the weather in Malacca is beyond superb-ity so i won't need to worry about floods & slippery roads & wet grounds & wet slippers yadayada the lists goes on... I can't wait to gorge myself with food food food. The pasar malams there are considered heavenly, because it's teeming with endless rows of, yeah you guessed it, FOOD! You name it, they have it there.



So sweet of you to send me a goodnight message.
I'm secretly pleased.
Tonight i shall sleep with a smile smacked on my face.

let the gentle breeze sail my love to you.

hady-heartthrob-mirza!!!!!

Oh-my-f-god
He won! He freakin` did it. zillionsOMG.
Zulky said "Sayang, it's a singing competition.It's not based on looks...[yadayadayada]"
Theory proven wrong,sweetheart.
I win !! because Hady wins!

Seriously, i think he wins because first he simply looks good on the screen and secondly it's because he sings,well. I bet if darling Mikey looks like the all-time-hunk David gorgeous Becks, Mikey would definitely win!

It's all about the looks,hun. And we girls love Hady-heartthrob-Mirza!! *melts*

I have baskets of praises for Hady, and hopefully Zulky is not turning green by the time he finishes reading this post. Don't worry baby, i still love you.

I'm grinning like a dork as i ogle at Hady's video.


ps: Zulky thinks Vy from Vietnam is hot. yadayada. Reality check :She's Not. & i am jealous.

jealousy kills,sometimes.

updates of my life.

1) Broke my own record. Went to Vivo, again, 3 days straight! I'm in love with that place. HubbaHubba~

2) My dinner was some-what not a dinner at all due to my sayang & his family unexpected presence. (I can barely eat) They don't know me, and all i really wanted to do was jump next to my sayang's table, and say hi to all of them. But but but, my sayang gave me an early warning. "Do not say hi to me" Yeah yeah. He's so near, but just not within my reach. My heart longs to be with him.

3) Sayang is going off to Kuantan tonight, which means that i'll miss my midnight chats/calls with him (for one whole solid week). I'm filled with ubber sadness. Oh,why am i so emotional?


Pain pain pain.

just missing you.

thanks for the memories (:

Vivo-ed with my ladies. And my dear Syikin can't make it because " [she is] going to Beijing"
Like whaat??
Nevermind. WE SURVIVED without Syikin!

1st attempt. [self-timer activated] Jhim is headless.

2nd attempt. Jean-nius!

soaked our pretty toes

Us 3,again. Check out the black clouds

yeah-what-e-verrr

blurry.

my hair swept across my face. ah,elegance.

jhim's footprints. Check out my pretty toes

something from Candy Empire

soaked toes, again.

smiling effortlessly.

Awesome-ness. It rained elephants & donkeys afterwards, so we went shopping. Here,there,everyWHERE. We OMG all the way because the stuff there are so drop dead GORGEOUS. I SOO WANT THEM!!

Most of the clothes we looked at were, OMG expensive. So,i cheered myself up by buying a cute purse (though i have many,i simply NEED this one) and a OMG-BEYOND-GORGEOUS earrings. ARRRR! *hyperventilating*

Clockwise : Biscuits from Candy Empire, the PURSE, Maoam sweet from Candy Empire (thanks Jhim) , the EARRINGS from Diva

when candid shots simply go wrong.
The look on my face is priceless.
Yea. Stop grinning you idiot.

I love you girls.



ps: i love my earrings

pps : pls let hady win

i'm so loved

Should i consider this good news or baad news?


" Your application for registration as a relief teacher is successful "

I just checked the application status today.

Rah Rah Rah!

thanks for the hugs&kisses

I feel like I am such a good girlfriend today.
I fetched Zulky from work. Nyeahehe.

I almost went berserk when his hand reached out to the direction of Sentosa and give the puppy-look face and in a pleading voice, he said "Amara..Amara.." (the name of the hotel where he work)
Grr. With girlfriend also think of work!

I missed walking around with him so much, and i think today he redeemed himself. Bringing me inside-out of weird-weird shops like Best Denki, a book store, Build-A-Teddy shop and Toys 'R' Us. He's got this magnetic field switch which turns on the moment his eyes set on Toys 'R' Us ! Our shuffling legs soon turned to running legs as he approaches Toys 'R' Us!
Boys~

My legs are sore now after the dragging,running,shuffling, hopping. My heart is giving me a big fat grin as i'm typing this post.



Baby baby baby.

i love you

memories, updated.

uniform changed. (all wear PANTS) NO SKIRTSS EF EF EFFF! + some gold lining..
leaders changed.
spirit evaporated (eons ago)
changed bowen marching style (lagi fck. are you kidding?? American marching??)
formed the "colour guides" (sexy mace twirlers)
mr razak's still breathing. (THANK GOD, that man is the best)
mr khoo's unfortunately still alive. (eff him off can?)

3 years passed and i still can't get over the fact that bowen band have yet to win best marching band award. It's so painful. I want to rule the band! But sometimes i think, nyeah, what ever!

time to win win win

i tthought i was a darling...

One day at Changi Village, a lau ah pek walked pass me carrying a handful of goods.

ah pek : *walking towards me* Hello darling...

me : -___- *mumbles* Pervert!

He shuffled pass me in a jiffy, and i was smart enough to give him a dirty look.

I almost fall rolling on the floor like prata after that.

Technology makes people lazy. He had a bluetooth earpiece on his left ear lor!

Gahgah! Almost died laughing. He was on the phone with his friggin` wife!! Waha!

For once i thought someone really think i was attractive...

Gahgah!

my days just got slightly happier.

anger concealed

I'm good.
I'm so proud of myself.
I held my head high as i walked away, and i didn't even shed a tear.
I'm a hero.

I felt that i'm stronger.
I've learnt to heal myself. Finally.


Interview @ RecruitExpress was a breeze.
He gave me his namecard. So anybody desperate looking for a job? You guys can call him up.
He'll hook you to some job.

Joy to the world that today will be over in less than 5hrs.
I'm whacked.
It's been a tiring plus emotional day for me...

Tonight, i'll pray for a better tomorrow and i'll pray even harder that zulky will have better health and i'll pray even even harder that my days will be happier.

i wish i was in Barbie world.

vote me and i'll pay you 2 cookies.

I have an interview tomorrow and guess what? I'm having second thoughts about going for it. Oh boy. I'm still trying to convince myself to go because of the "experience" Aww. How enriching!!! I have yet to pick out tomorrow's interview outfit. MY nails need some re-applying and gosh, I REALLY DO NOT FEEL LIKE GOING.


And to contradict myself even further, I desperately need/want/require a job.



I guess i figured it out. I shall/need/must/have to go for the interview.

Gah. It's just a freakin' interview right?? Pffft!! Zulky, please say you can accompany me tomorrow.. *crossingfingers&toes*

Sidetrack :
See the new-ly added button on your right? it screams : *VOTE for my BLOG*

I really want my deary deary Blog to be recognized. Like haluu, i'm blogging almost everyday, but people rarely read. gah gah. I'm trying to make it to the top in 3 months time. (HELLOOO WORLD!)
Need your support though..

So Haluu, if you are my friend, please vote for my Blog and if you are just a random Blog-hopper and happen to like my blog, gimme a vote too (: greatly appreciate it humans!

I realized also that most of the top bloggers are females, and not to mention they are rather err good-looking. What! Are they trying to tell me that if you're not good-looking you won't make it top 10 because you are too ugly to be on top!!??

Boohoohoo, shame on you people.

Pfft! Reality check, this is a monthly blog contest right? Not a beauty pageant!

If i happen to be ehemehem, the Blogger of the month, i'll get a "Badge" and i can paste it on my blog. *beamslikeachipanzee*


like this one :


I want one too!
Btw, she's been tops for almost every month, but i can't seem to find anything interesting about her n her blog.

Ha.Ha.Ha.

ps : it's rainin` elephants and donkeys.

perfection & excellency!

VideoJug: How To Be The Perfect Girlfriend





VideoJug: How To Be The Perfect Boyfriend



It's rib-tickling & beyond humour!
Enjoy. *HintHint*


Love you Zulky.

Ps : You may want to ignore the "in the bedroom" part.

effing eff eff.

Fuckety-fuck

I dropped my prized possession.
It has horrible scratches now and its fugging irritating.
I'm covering the scratches with stickers and now my handphone looks even more pathetic.
fug fug fug... till infinity & beyond..
My heart breaks. ouch. My poor b'day handphone.




The scratches are strategically concealed by those stickers. sigh. pathetic.

ps :If you have any suggestions on how to conceal these unsightly scratches, please do tell me.. leave a message on my tag box or under "comment"

thank god it's just a dream.

GoldenlandMark hotel called me. $5.50/hour (!!!)
I'm afraid I rejected the offer. What's wrong with me.

I had a sleepless night episode again. Zulky woke me up at 4+ am to say hi to me. That was okay. Then i woke myself up at 5+am because my tummy ache is killing me, and the expired Axe Oil is not helping. So i had to drag myself out of bed and head to the kitchen to grab water and swallow 1 pill. After which I can't sleep again.

10 am the lady ($5.50/hour) called. Arh. I dunno what i babbled to her, but somewhat she got it that i don't want the job.

Amazingly, despite the countless disturbance in my sleep, i managed to squeeze in little (very) weird dreams.

1) I dreamt that me and Niki were talking and she said that she's doing Stats revision now and just started on the 1st 2 topics. Then i remembered making a note in my mind to start revising and was consumed with jealousy to know that everyone started revising except me. Panic attack.

2) I dreamt about this year 1 councillor (Gory, whatshername?) asking me what i think of religion as i was at the ATM.God knows why. And she said something about the saw a ghost.. a pontianak. Good god!

3) I dreamt i'm at my aunt's house for a sleepover. I see my cousins everywhere, and i end up finding an empty spot beside my younger brother, and settled there,made myself comfortable and snoozed.

I was so tired when i woke up.
I met so many people in my dreams this morning.
Hopefully it happens again tonight, minus the ghost part.

dream a little dream.

just another episode & i can't let it pass...

Now playing: Avril Lavigne - Hot
via FoxyTunes

I can't stand the fact that I love fried (dangerously yummy) food. I mean like duh, who would be sucha loser to not like fried food! It surprises me to this very day that i still enjoy meals at MacD. And not to mention that Long John Silvers' is one of my favourite places to devour fast-and-easy food. I bet some people don't even consider fast food as real (u mean you can really eat them and not die?? ) food. Maybe more like rubbish food that makes your cholesterol level shoot sky high! Yea whatever, i still like them all.

& this is the very (ultimate!) reason why i'm having difficulities keeping myself in shape. Urh. I can no endure this feeling of sucking in my stomach after a very good meal. I fear what i eat will end me up bolstered up like a.. oh god! The thought of it drives me insane.

Exercise exercise exercise but still no difference leh. I was on my way home after a "long day" and I decided to grab a cuppa popcorn and chips from pasar malam. (fattening food alert!) Reached home, had dinner, and gulped down a tin of Root Bear (fattening drink alert!) and then i did 20 sit ups. Heh. Can't afford to more more than 20 cos my tummy muscle is really pulling! Hopefully 20 sit ups enough to burn all fats for today!


Now playing: Avril Lavigne - Girlfriend
via FoxyTunes


Hey hey you you! I want to be your girlfriend (although i would be out-of-shape !)

i'm gonna try harder

rainy thursday...

Nothing's much more comfortable than just rotting at home, flicking through random tv channels and enjoying the comforting sounds as drops of rain fall from the very gloomy sky.

It's been quite some time since i've felt this kind of cooling breeze. It makes me snoozy and lazy.

In fact, i'm too lazy right now to blog. I just feel the need to update my blog for the sake that my blog does not look barren.

Rain. As the saying goes, enjoy it while it lasts.



ps : i just downloaded this new photo editor, and it edits(+effects) my pictures in a nick of time. So pretty right?? I'm in love with it!

your love put me at the top of the world...

Surprisingly, i find the rain rather comforting. Despite the fact that i had to leap over puddles of water and carry a very wet umbrella in my bag.


I remembered this one song while i was busy washing the dishes. It's the kind of song that tracks back to years before you, when you are still a primary school girl, so naive, so innocent, when love meant nothing more than a "crush". It was the era when EVERYONE have transparent cassette tapes. It's the in thing. And being a young girl, i had 1 too. A pink one, songs for Children. I loved listening to it so much, and i can tell you i learnt most of my nursery rhymes or "children songs" from that cassette.

And this song just re-tracked itself back into my memory 2 days ago...

I'm on the top of the world looking down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world


Vivo-ed today with Zulky. Thanks for spending the time with me huns. Loves!

you're much loved.

pleasant surprise

My relief teacher application has just been half accepted.
Aha.

crossing my fingers and toes that schools will employ me.

joyous season.

a pseudo smile

Every thing's just going downhill and i really wished that right now i'm in school still busy mugging my socks off for my A's.

We don't talk bout US anymore, we talk about HIM HIM HIM.
His work
His friends
His schedule
His life
His every thing.

Call him, and he'll say "I'm at MY work place" or "I'm with MY friends"

When i talk about ME, we'll end up diverting to something bout HIM.

He means the world to me, but right now, i guess he means a world to himself.

"Ya i want to see you, BUT later after I'M done with MY friends"

How thoughtful of you. I understand you completely.

I want to explain to him but his too easy-going attitude will just say "Whatever la sayang, get angry all you want" And it's very disturbing, because he's usually not like that.

He lost his patience in me, in us, i can tell.

I can no longer pass each day without tears swelling up in my eyes.

He no longer asks how i feel, what did i do, what i ate. Like i said, all we talked about is him.

I feel like i'm a nobody.

His lucky colleagues can see him every single day of their life, whether they like it or not. But i only have 1 day where he can totally be mine.

Maybe it's my fault. I've been too over-bearing.

My happy days are gone gone gone. I don't know if i'll be able to heal from the wounds.

It'll definitely takes alot of time.

i wonder if he knows.

I can't tell him how i feel face-to-face because i know i will just end up bursting into tears.

I hope he reads this, all so carefully, and understands my feelings better.

my horoscope for the day.

You're all fired up over some issue that is much more meaningful to you than it is to almost anyone else. That's no reason not to fight your hardest for it -- but it may be tougher to get the kind of support you want.

buy me a smile

i'm hopelessly useless

Too lost for words and i'm having trouble to express how i feel.
24 hours passed, not a single news from you.
Tried my best, but still no news.

Hopefully you are still there.

Just too busy?

replace me

i wonder what does it takes to ever appease the people around me, including myself.

save me, please.