i'll hire myself if i could.

I wonder why they made English as first language. It's so redundant, because now, all they ever ask you is whether your tongue is proficient in Chinese (or stylishly known as Mandarin) or not.

I wonder how tough it'll be like 4-5 years down the road, when i'm really looking for a permanent job. It's already bad enough for me right now.

Today, I was this " " close to getting a job by the way.
The last question the lady asked was my name, i answered truthfully, and damn, the excitement of getting a job evaporated in a jiffy.

"Sorry, we need someone who speaks Chinese."

But she was really nice,so, i guess i'll just let it pass.

I don't know where did i go wrong all these while.
Maybe it's just the mother-tongue thingy that barricades all my chances of getting a job.

I'll make sure my children speaks French. Just in case.


It's only the second day of 2008 and here I am feeling all choked up with sadness,frustration,angst...

It's a really bad omen.
But I can't help it,because i didn't want these things to happen.
How do you expect someone to remain smiley if you break promises?
How do you expect someone to be happy after a misunderstanding when all you do is keep quiet and not even APOLOGISE?

I thought i've had enough of 2007,but looks like 2008 for a start is bad bad bad all the way for me.


Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day,for me atleast.

feel like smothering myself .