Very Last Post Of 2008!

Happy New Year To All!.
Saying my goodbyes to yesteryear, and Ola to 09'.
School's reopening next week, and you CAN NOT IMAGINE JUST HOW HAPPY I AM.

:D :D :D :D

I found a couple of interesting things in the past two days and i thought that i might share it here.

You guys can NEVER imagine how incredibly boring it was when i spent the whole of yesterday in my urr JB home, ALONE.

I initially wanted to go to the GYM and POOL so BADLY, but guess what, when i went down by the pool at exactly 4PM, the whole pool was sorta got crowded - with kids.

No hunky man or babe (except me,duh ;) ) around. So i guess, i should instead grab a book and lie by the pool instead.

And i HAD wanted to go to the gym, but i fear that i might end up stuck in between the machines, and prolly die because no trainers were around (to watch me work out HAA HAA HAA).

Very boring day,it was.

And so, as promised, here are some of the interesting stuff that i gathered since i've got nothing better to do DURING THESE HOLIDAYS, or whatever that is left of it anyways?

#1 The SIM clone.

the almost identical logo

I am dying to know what's with the 3 curvy lines as SIM logo.

#2 POSB Drive Thru

My head turned 3545 degrees when i saw this smart machine by the petrol station. I might have not been reading the news...but this THING has been installed like, EVERYWHERE since GOD KNOWS WHEN! Ok i was exaggerating. Think that the weather is TOO hot to walk to the ATM? Just Drive TO it. Awesomeness. Adds up to the reasons why i can't wait to drive! ;)


#3 Lamborghini Goes 'GREEN'



This Murcielago baby costs you USD$427,095.00. And guess what? It's SECOND HAND's PRICE, mind you! I saw once a house with 2 of these babies. 2!?

Imagine the number of gucci bags that i get to buy with that kind of amount of monay....

Hmmm....

#4 Oh La La...LA LA LA LA LA

Guess what? 26 days to MY BIRTHDAY!
I realised it like 5 minutes ago.

YAY!




Happy New Year! and to those who are NOT really looking forward to 2009, all i can say is... TOO BAD!

Tiil then.
Faa :)

Babe Issue

Do you want babies?
No i want NONE.
Not till my friend have decided to psych me into getting one.
He was practically shooing me to grab a baby off the shelves.

Go! Go!

Now my brain is tuned to getting married and have (to have) baby(ies)

*gasp*

And i forgot to tell you, i am only 19. Who am i to tell others yes or no to babies?
But still, the idea of getting one/two/three in the future is just so appalling.

So the conversation goes:


And when i said i would definitely want to throw in a couple of Gucci bags if i have more than enough money, he told me to get babies. Ya, those high-maintainence err, cute cuddly small people.

And so i said, Fine, I'll get babies, as in ADOPT one.


He said workouts. By getting African babies (as inspired from Brangelina), i will have to bring him/her to the GYM?!? I barely make it alive in the GYM! omg
I'm such a bad role model for born-to-be-strong African babies.

After putting much thought to it, i finally decided, OK fine, babies for me. I'll make one myself!


So want to know my verdict?

Yes or No?

Wait, i'll call Z tonight and ask.

:D

Cheers,
Faa

Resolutions, Anyone?

Exactly 5 days to new year.
And NEW YEAR calls for some NEW resolutions.
I've made truckloads of resolutions before this, but queerly, i just don't bother to keep track of them after some time.

It's always those typical-fateha resolutions.
Something that sounds like urr, study harder, get better grades, be a better daughter, be a better girlfriend yadayada.

Hmm, now i know why i don't follow up my resolutions! They are just as mundane as ME. *gasp*

I should come up with something like... learn how to rollerblade, throw a birthday party, have a get-together with friends EVERY MONTH.
Now, that sounds more like goals to me.

Grr, someone NEEDS to tell me exactly how to come up with AN EXCELLENT list of resolution that is worth MY time and energy crafting it.

I'll let my brilliant brain work on it for a while.
But chances are i won't share MY RESOLUTIONS here.

No, i don't want you to COPY MINE. It has to come from your heartttttt you knowwwww.

:D


Meanwhile, let me give you a sneak peek into my new urr, home (?)


And omg. I have to update soon on HOW KIASU these Singaporeans/Malaysians are when they board the buses to checkpoint. I have high blood pressure everytime i see them with their ridiculous acts in/on/off the buses.

Ah, typical.

update

hoho.
Merry X'mas All.

I did run away from home, indeed!
I'm in Singapore NOW!


FYI:

• I'm hungry. No, FAMISHED.
• Waiting for Z @ Hougang Mall [3.26pm]
• I found a USABLE power socket for USE.
• Z arrived at 3.27pm

Time to go!


Till then,
xoxo
Fateha

distraught,still

T'is the season to be jolly.NOT.

There's definitely NOTHING to be jolly or holy about, especially since 1stly, because i GOT the feeeeling that i will MOST PROBABLY be stuck in the hell-hole in youshouldknowhere. 2ndly, it's because i am purely not a Xtian, so therefore, no going to the church for me on X'mas.

It's been already 2 weeks or so living in M'sia. And yesterday was my FIRST time eva taking the BUS home.
Yea, I'm not talking bus interchanges and NEL and MRT whatnots. I'm talking about the yellow banana Causeway Link Bus that was somewhat packed (it wasn't that packed. Thank god?!) with KIASU S'poreans/M'sians who actually STOOD AT THE DOORS of the bus (yea, they DON'T SIT) so that they can RUN (yes, literally RUUUUN!) to the customs have their passports scanned first.

I skipped the running, and strolled like a graceful swan instead.

And i ended up... standing for half the journey.

No prizes for guessing right on how i am getting home tonight.

Also, i want to thank my parents, for being very extremely unreasonably protective of me.

"no, you cannot travel home alone"
"they will think that you are some rebellious-up-to-no-good girl"

And i thought that i've always looked like urm ... an angel?

*Why. WHY on the BLOODY EARTH are they making ME BLOODY SHIFT to BLOODY there. Now i can't bloody travel to school even if i bloody wanted to.*

It's amazing how they are always full of praises for that place there. Kept on comparing on how Singapore is so like this and Malaysia is wow so like that.

I'm going to run away from home tonight.

So while waiting for Z, i'm going to draft my plan.

omg, wtf?

Fateha's back

Come wave hi to me.
I'm back in Singapore, urrh, atleast for today!

And the horrid thing about it is that, i have got NOTHING to do.
So basically, i'm like a lost mouse.
So guess who is my savior?

Ok you most probably won't guess it right anyway, but it's Jo to the Elle.

She saved me.
No, correction.She and her Internet Saved ME.

THANK YOU! *throwsflowersatJo*

I never knew that getting Wireless Internet Connection + a usable Power Socket is so very hard to find. Even libraries don't have power sockets for use! And McDonalds' too! and KFC! And it's horrible enough that i have to carry my MacBook around (because it's a tiny bit heavy to tote around).

Hmm, so much for having Wireless@SG, but lacking in power sockets! It sucks, totally.

And yes, i tried my best to ask to use a bloody power socket. I keep on firing electric stares at this girl-groupie who was using the power socket to watch some uh, DRAMA series or something of that sort. Grr. I really think i NEED it (the power socket) more than them!

But all those aside now, i am happily using some Internet (oh my goodness, like FINALLY!?) now!

Haha.
Oh, maybe, Hoho?


Cheerios,
faa


p/s YQ, i think my blog header is PERFECTLY fine. Just putting my artistic talents to great use. Gah! :D And yes, see you tomorrow.

p/s/s err, i have yet to wrap the gifts (?!)

Good For Nothing

This is a scheduled post.

I should be in M'sia while you guys are reading this.
Well, it's not bad right, to have a piece of my mind, even as i am far across the #%!$#!~!@ causeway.

Just FYI, i'm officially out of this house, tonight, Friday.
God blast those renters, who had decided to shift in a few days earlier than they should.

I can't believe that the Parents have decided to do all these.
I merely call this a "sacrifice".
I think they got it wrong. When other people "sacrifice" so much, it definitely doesn't mean SACRIFICING our OWN HOUSE.

Are they mad, or are they just plain crazy.

I bet if the Parents read this post, they will be absolutely disappointed that their own diligent daughter have such an evil say against their uh, so-called sacrifice.

My, i believe they did all this out of self-interest? Opps.

When dad says, oh, the kids won't have friends over there [in M'sia]...
The mum just replied, they can meet friends at school.

At school?

Wow. That is so old school.

Then what happens when the kids have NO SCHOOL?
No school = no friends?

F-it.

I've got an inkling that i might not be able to enjoy my X'mas week/holiday as much as i thought i would.

All thanks to the evil queen at home. I can smell her evil plan from here. She wants us grounded. Be homely good-for-nothings. No friends, no life. Fucking boring humans. No life, didn't i say that already?

I want to be with my friends as much as i know they want me grounded.
I want to be with Zulky 100000000 times more than i want to be with the family.

It's not about the matter of 'i want', but it's the question of if 'i could'.

You know what.
I think i had enough off this awesome we-sacrifice-for-the-family thing.

I hate using the word Hate.
But maybe, this is a good time to use it.

I'm sorry if i can't make it.

Devastating

I woke up at 3am.
Brushed my teeth.
Got into the car.
Kept my eyes peeled on the road (incase dad try to steal eyeshuts WHILE DRIVING *gasp*)
Prayed hard that the traffic at Causeway is smooth sailing.
Stopped at petrol station and give Chevy a jiffy fill up.
Stop again, if there's food to buy along the ROAD.

2 hours later.

Back on the bed (in S'pore), snugglin' tight.

Anyone out there willing to TRADE their life for MINE?

It's horrible enough NOW. Imagine how torturous it would be like when school finally reopens!
It's going to be superbly horrid for me. It'll pass off as the next painful moment in my entire 19 years of living and breathing in S'pore.

What were they thinking?

I need a house in S'pore now. Er, anyone there to give me a shelter?
No no, i'll pay you.

I stared because their faces, so different, so similar, were all devastatingly, inhumanly beautiful.
Bella Swan, Twilight

new blog skin ya'll

revamping blog -in progress!-

[5.34pm]
I finally finished revamping my blog.
i love it more now that i have my face plastered on my 980 pixel blog header!

So cool so cool.

Stop ogling at me! I can feel your hot stares.^^

Z's apprentice at your service. Teehee.*takesabow*

Z's getting married today. No wrong, he GOT married just now.
The question here is not to whom, but to what.

It's a freaking rifle.
His wife now is a freaking rifle. (of godknowswhichmodel - i'll squeeze in more details later!)

He called me last night, to inform me, he's getting his rifle or gun or whichever is appropriate today. And he also added that "...it's very official. For a recruit, getting his first rifle is like getting married to his wife. There's a ceremony to it.." etc.

I thank god there's no wedding bands involved.

I bet he is secretly relieved that his pseudo wife doesn't nag. The only thing she does is bangs?

Am i not wrong?^^

Sidetrack!

I saw this interesting Ad while i was watching TV in M'sia.


Yes, it comes with a Halal logo, as certified by Malaysia.
*gasp*

I never knew that Colgate can be so alchoholic and/or porkish.
Non-halal Colgates are okay to use, right?

I think i have sinned enough.
Like, insisting on wearing shorts when I'm in M'sia.

Either way, i still insists on using COLGATEs regardless of the missing halal logos.

Err? Comments?

[6.13pm]
OMG. I just realised. It's actually just a marketing plot!
Go figure it out yourself.

Chao!

And so i recall

Exactly 2 weeks to New Year.

The year is finally coming to a wrap, and yes, don't ask me how it feels like.
For the first time in many years, i feel that it's always good to look forward into the future, instead of reminiscing too much about how i missed doing this and that 10 months ago or so.

But despite that, i think that the year's worth of events and happenings have made me become who i am today. So many things that I've never realized before. So many things that i wished i have done.

One of the more significant moment in 2008 is the release of A Levels results, followed by Uni posting results. I won't say that i experienced sleepless nights and endless nightmares, but i did had weird dreams about it. Ah. It was pure extreme torture. The wait i mean.

Then of course, the sweetest thing was i got employed for the very first time! My very first job! Well, that's exciting, especially when you love what you are doing at work, and still am!

Then Uni started. And hmm, i never expected Uni to be so fun?

Zulky had his enlistment. 13 Dec. How could i forget that? It was so hard to let him go. For some reason, i think i was glad that i didn't make it for his enlistment day. It was already hard enough for me the day before.

And look where i am today? Shifting to M'sia, for real. One thing is for sure - I never expected myself to be in this position 5 months back.

But the greatest things happen during that process. Happy realisation day to me.
I've realised that my younger bro is not a lazy bum as what i had initially thought. He's the greatest person to be around with. And it's not a surprise if he already found his first girl friend at the age of 16. (aha! I saw you chatting at 2am in hushed voice!)

And also, when things happen, you don't stand up for yourself, but you stand up for the familia.
Family Unite!

God, i sound like gramps.

Talking about being old, it's exactly :

40 days to my Birthday!
8 days to X'mas!
7 days to Zulky booking out!
22 days till school reopens!


Myohmy, so many things to look forward to, that it's pointless if i want to wind back time.


Chao!

FUN FACTS

F-U-N FACTS
explicit contents;not for babies to read

How Sex Starts?
(let Me tell you how)

a smile leads to a laugh
a laugh leads to a high 5
a high 5 leads to a hug
a hug leads to a kiss
a kiss leads to a make out
make out leads to a feel up
a feel up leads to a finger
a finger leads to a hand
a hand leads to a lick
a lick leads to a suck
a suck leads to a f***.

So tell me how many people are you gonna smile at after you read this?

Ohmyohmy, is this too explicit?
I think i just tainted your sparkly clean brains.
GAH.
I just feel evil today.
So there goes my evil dose to you!

Baris,Sedia!

I never knew that a phone call 2 min long can make my frown upturn.
The feeling is so good to get to hear him shouting "lights out! lights out" before whispering to me "i got to go, lights out lights out."

Before lights out... i asked him, how is it?

He replied, finally i feel like a soldier (after 2 days of "mild training")... it's nothing to me....the training makes us be real men.

Take note of that - Real Men. Not Real Boys or Real Guys. Real Men,man!

Yes yes! Finally!

Wow. Just 2 days in ARMY and he feels like a real man already?
I can't wait for 2 years later! He'll be even more manly or in fact, manly-er!

Can't wait! *rubhandstogether*

And oh! He added: My bunk looks exactly like the one from the Army Daze [movie]!

Ah, you so cute.

Meanwhile, people, if you guys are scratching/banging you heads, thinking what to get for me (hehe!) this X'mas, well, quit thinking. Because, all i want for X'mas is (ok this may sound extreeeeeeeeeeeemely cheesey, and you are fore warned!) is is is ...Z! (oh, i can still make room for the Twilight series thou :) )

He's booking out this X'mas eve! I have a grin smacked on my face as i am typing this.

Omg, i thank my lucky stars, my lucky underwear, my lucky charm,my lucky everything!

3 cheers for No silly 3-weeks confinement! Confine our boys for what, right? They need some tender loving care from the ladies, away from the brutal jungle and demonic Sirs/Enciks.

I don't feel lonely.
I just feel happy. Ecstatic as the matter of fact.
No more worries about what time he's coming home.
No more ohforcryingoutloud.
No more "how come you didn't call me"
And many other things.

But there's so many things that i miss now. Only god knows. Or maybe i'm just too shy to share it here.

But one thing is for sure. I miss doing our favorite hobby together!

EAT!
gah!

The splendid lunch @ Astons.

Food taste good, as long as i get to have them with you.
Thou Astons was great, i still want Tony Roma's

FYI, nowadays my dinners taste like wood.
So sad right?


P/s Shyte. My shades BROKE. Is that considered as a bad omen??

sunny

on the way back.

I'm feeling all sick inside.
Enough guilt for one day i guess.

And oh, i need my sunshine!

sobs.

i wish you well

i never knew that it's going to be this hard.

i really wish you well.
and i know that you will keep to your promise this time.

i know nothing (much) about army jargons.
tell me about it when the next time we meet.

tell me what's army like.
tell me what they make you eat.
do they really make you bathe naked with other guys?
you mean they make you march at 4am in the morning?
were there any bootlickers?
how often you polish your boots?
what time you wake up everyday?
do you get ATLEAST 8 hours of sleep?
have you quit smoking?



till we meet again,
ily.

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
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claper!

Give me bowen drumline!
and Persis Overture
and a good oboe solo!

the shift

I found some interesting stuff while i was clearing my mini junk yard in lieu with the shifting bullcrap.

i drew it myself ofcourse!

It was pasted right smack on my organizer...hmm 3 years ago.
It feels real good to come across random bits and pieces from the past.
I also got to read a few notes that i've written in my organizer cum diary about how much i miss Z and how adorable he was..and what we did...and the tiny "goals" that i've set for myself such as "not to be angry for no particular reason".

My room or aka soon-to-be-ex room looks really bare without the books on the shelves now.

And oh,I found this too!



It's my very own Mickey Gloves!
Ok no, those are my band gloves. How to tell?
Because it looks like this:


I actually have a pair of gloves with me,still!
Omg. These will keep me warm for a while :)

I'm growing fatter.
And i think i should really join a sports CCA soon.

I really don't want to go no where. But i somehow can feel it, that maybe it's for the best?

random baby!

i'm sucha artist!
:D

the shift

Dearest readers,

As promised, i've got something to announce.
No nothing that serious.
But it's just some... uh sad news.
Or not so sad for some.


Here goes.

As much as i love my home here, i've got to express my regrets, that i am officially shifting to Malaysia. Yes. Malaysia. (no offence to my friends who are currently based in M'sia)

Well, there's two ways you can see it the Good And The Bad.

The good news: It's just Malaysia, as in just across the horrible causeway. It's not as if i'm going to Australia or the other end of the earth for that matter.

The bad news: Bad news for ME is that i have to travel to and fro the causeway every single day for the rest of my schooling life. I think my parents have decided to torture me for NO particular reason. I pity me. I pity my soul. Won't/Can't rest in peace.

I already told Z to F it.
I'm going to stay with grandma's ON WEEKDAYS no matter what.
No one in the F-ing right mind would travel to-fro JB for F-U-N.

What am i suppose to do in JB?
The nearest mall is like 5 kilometers away. That's equivalent to one expressway.
Like what if i get hungry. I need MACDELIVERY.
Or what if i get bored.
And i need good food from Tony Roma's.
Plus, i need my INTERNET CONNECTION.
LIKE EVERYDAY.

I need what i have HERE to be THERE.
I'm not being whiny.
It's just that what am i suppose to do there?
Go shopping?Movies? WITH WHO!?

This is getting worst.
For once, when i thought that i am going to have the best time of my life, things take a turn and decided to gobble up my dear life and leave me with nothing, and expect me to start a NEW LIFE AGAIN somewhere i am NOT familiar with.

Why.
Now?
Seriously.

School's starting on the 8th. And i don't like the looks of it, at all.


fuck it.

God. I'm going to miss being normal.

Results DAY!

well?

Oh, results are out. 'Nuff said.

I got all emo last night (since it's 2am in the morning and everyone seems ASLEEP although they appear online on MSN) and decided to do some song-searching.

I ended up listening to Katy Perry's Ur So Gay.
Definitely not the song for me, but somehow i got the feeling that Katy Perry is a lesbian or something because by far, most of her songs are so pro-female. I kissed a girl (not literally) is a good song though it is banned in Singapore! HAHA. Ok what kiss girls. Opps.

And then i saw a list of songs from Kelly Osbourne while searching for Avril Lavingne.
Kelly and Avril GOT awesome talent. Kelly probably gotten it from her Daddy Ozzy.
Ozzy is like so fabulous. Love the hair!

they are the 21st century Adam's Family.

And Avril.

She's just too good. And doesn't she look like she's just ripped off from a Gossip Girl scene?
Very versatile indeed.


Now, i should find a talent within me, other than blowing clarinets.

Hmm.

not very bliss

Location: Bliss Restaurant
Time: 6.35pm

Somehow, the seat infront is always empty.

Being a lone is not good at times.
It makes you feel all squishy inside and queer on the outside.
Being alone makes you feel like you have no one to be there for you for meals.
Especially when you're in the restaurant.
And the irony: the bf who is the chef, but the gf is famished out there.
Sad?

Oreo milkshakes are a must have.
Grab a cup and slurp it down in a jiffy and enjoy the icy tingling feeling of awesomeness and coolness that will make you forget that having cramps means you OUGHT TO forbid yourself from ALL form of cold drinks, regardless of how heavenly it is! I defied this, and now i'm suffering the aftermath. Shucks.

When you sit alone, you tend to do things just to please yourself.
Like taking self-portraits.
Wow. Just look at how depressed i looked. Pictures like these help to remind you HOW torturous it is to wait for the bf to cook meals, that are not even meant for both of you to gorge on later.

Reading is a very good time filler. Getting the Bored-of-chick-flicks sydrome? Then try getting short stories like the one above to read. Yes, getting those with dirtay grotty stories helps to make you "read-on" till the end. The endings are usually not as sexual as the title might seem to be. Sad.

Location: Bliss Restaurant
Time: 8pm (1.5 hours later)

Dinner! Like, FINALLY!

Dinners are Fun when you have the one you love eating with you. Yes only 1 person. Not 2,3 or 4 person looking at you eating. Such a love-mood dampener. When all i thought i can FINALLY have a heart to heart talk...some things just happen to spoil the golden moment. GRRR! Thank god i didn't have to SHARE my cheese balls with the rest of them. THANK YOU ALL! THANKS AH!

What more can i ask for. Dinner with you. Just a simple dinner. I beg for nothing more.
No friends.
No work.
No family.
No cooking.
Just you and me.
But i don't know what happened.
I guessed i expected to much out of a simple dinner.

But i know i tried my best this time.
I managed to put on a smile. I am so proud of myself. But it's just that something don't feel quite right, right now.


It's complicated.

besty boos!

Alright. You read it right. I'm letting a "surprise" out soon.

So far some of my bestest pals have heard it from my mouth. Well, the "surprise" did surprise them. If you have yet to know of anything shocking from me, it's not because you are not one of my besty boos. I love all of you equally as much as i love my own life. It's just that i can't bear to hurt any of you with this shocking revelation of mine.

Firstly, despite that smiley picture of me, which lacks the hint that i am ACTUALLY in a very utterly disturbed state right now,i am just as sober (not drunk but sad) as ever.

Secondly, i will let the cat out of the bag when i think it's the right time. Don't pester me what the surprise it. Meow.

How now.

Meanwhile. I think things have changed a little for me.
It's really great to have friends. Finally.
I never thought that i have anyONE in my life.
Friends, yes. Friends not lovers. The people that you can talk all day and/or night long. The girls/guys that you can happily gossip about how F-U-N school was 2-5 years ago. The people whom you can call Bitch and Ass and Idiot without even feeling the tiny inch of guilt. (try saying that to your bf/gf, see what he/she will do next!)

The people that you can talk to your problems to when he's not around.
The people that takes you to the park for a chill out session.
The people that guide you along when you feel like a noob and they are just more than happy to help.

I've made many friends, but somehow i am an ass when it comes to keeping them sealed into the zip lock of friendship.

Today, i am more than happy to accept any invitations. (Friends, PLEASE ASK ME OUT AS OFTEN AS YOU WANT. I am all yours!)

I feel better now.

For the record, i think by far this is my first post where i finally blog about my friends, and not about Z or school or band (gosh).


I'm not going to mention names.
But seriously, you people know who you are.

Thanks.
Seriously thanks. You don't know how much each of you have changed my life.

how i wish i can smile like this
every.single.day

:(